can I have a heaping helping of fml?

[coyotesuspect]

Professor: I watched a man drown once.
Entire class: D: 
Professor: *chuckles as if reminiscing fondly*
Entire class: *jerks away from professor*
Professor: I don't know why I chuckled at that.
Entire class: . . .
Professor: *chuckles again*

~~~

Mmm. School. Speaking of, guess what I'm not doing right now? That's right. School. Since yesterday I've written something like 5000 words of ridiculous J2 AU which is not any of the essays or fannish obligations I should be writing.

And, I'm just. I'm almost done. Maybe 1000 to another 2000 words, and it's been so long since I've actually written anything, let alone finished anything (hello oddly productive winter quarter!). That I don't even want to sleep, even though it actually hurts to look at my screen right now and I'll be incredibly busy the next two days because of the Art Festival.

So I'm breaking my hiatus to whine at you about my poor life decisions. Which are poor.

And I still can't write porn. Goddammit.

~~~

ETA: Have a poem:

The Blue Boat

How late the daylight edges
toward the northern night
as though journeying
in a blue boat, gilded in mussel shell

with, slung from its mast, a lantern
like our old idea of the soul

-Kathleen Jamie

Comments

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

Give up. Go to sleep. You have to sell t-shirts in the morning and then go cook all afternoon. It's not worth it.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

Fic is always worth it. All great minds must suffer for their art.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

You're no great mind. You're just an overtired college student. Hell, you're even be derivative right now. We both know you're ripping off familiar with this "conversation."

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

At least familiar loves me. Which is more than I can say for you.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

Uh huh. How's that porn going, btw?

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

Very well, thank you.

....

I hate you

[nitro26.livejournal.com]

Is he for real? How could someone laugh at something like that? Just... D: D: D:

Ah, the end of the school year is always so slow and it's also like the hardest time to get motivated to finish everything up. I feel ya. *sigh* (but fic is better than schoolwork. always. :p) Good luck with everything. :)

[lavendergaia]

If finishing this fic will clear your mind of it so you can focus on your school work, then go for it, bb.

[slartibartfast.livejournal.com]

It's good to write, whatever it is you write.

That poem is lovely.

[oth-leyton-love.livejournal.com]

woo J2!AU that makes me excited!

and your teacher is creepy.

[cherie-morte.livejournal.com]

FINISH IT, YOU FUCKING WHORE. *slaps*

AND THEN COME MAKE OUT WITH ME, BECAUSE YOUR CONVERSATION UP THERE WAS FUNNY AND TURNED ME ON.

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Your professor frightens me. It will not surprise me when you eventually write that he's quit teaching to become an evil overlord.

Sometimes writing's just gotta happen. When it wants to happen, it will, even if terribly inconvenient. (And I can't write porn either. :| For some reason, I feel like being older I should have developed the knack, but it doesn't seem to work that way.)

Love that poem. Really hits me just right. I so often focus on longer poems that I forget how incredibly much can be said in just a few words.

Also, looks like you could use a ♥ and a *hug* tossed your way. Hopefully you will not be familiar-less for long.

[cacklesthewitch.livejournal.com]

Poor life decisions are what makes us human and keeps life interesting. (hence the fic coming at an inconvenient time)

Good luck with the school stuff.

[bloodnfire.livejournal.com]

O_o Dude, your professor is scary.

JUST WRITE IT OUT, BB. Then you can focus on other stuff.

[kros-21.livejournal.com]

woah, creepy professor! O.O

I won't complain for you wasting time with a J2 AU. fics are always welcome. :)

*hugs*

[mistyzeo.livejournal.com]

ahahahaha that is soooo creepy.

\o/ for J2AUs that you shouldn't be writing! i have... one or two of those, floating about. damn you, brain. focus!

[cantarina]

Hopefully you're beating yourself up less now that you've had some sleep!

And I still can't write porn. Goddammit.
Porn is hard :/ (Please excuse the pun.)

[unavoidedcrisis.livejournal.com]

I like that poem. I also am terrified of you professor, though I have to admit I laughed. It was more one of those 'is this even real life?' laughs.

And I totally know how you're feeling about 'writing, but not writing what I ought to be writing.' My proposed solution is keep writing until you finish it, then it'll be done and you'll stop thinking about it.

That's not very helpful, is it?

[lady-eilthana.livejournal.com]

I imagine this situation as super awkward and really creepy. I've heard about people giggling at funerals but that's something different. Was he kidding - maybe?

Write, write, wriiiite! :D

[familiardevil.livejournal.com]

Your college is so odd.
It makes me want to live in your closet all the more.

[zempasuchil.livejournal.com]

good god your prof! can I ask who this was? It's good to have a collection of creepy professor stories to trade.

Isn't that how it always happens? Fic won't come and it won't come and then when you have to do other stuff it comes and bites you in the butt - and it's not even the fic you had waiting on the sidelines or have been wanting to work on otherwise, it's entirely new shit? SYMPATHY. It sucks, man.

(Advice from a UChicago student: If you read Freud or Marcuse (sosc) they pretty much explain it all - repression of libido which is creative-reproductive-sensual energy, sublimation into work that makes libido's release unfulfilling so you have even MORE yen to do the creative-sensual-fun stuff, and then with unplanned ficcing it's released through art/sensual activity - which frustrates your conscious because it knows it has to get work done instead of spending time making yourself feel satisfied.)
(apparently the solution is to convince yourself that work is actually play. have not yet mastered that :/)

[scorpiod1.livejournal.com]

Your professor is...very creepy. *eyes him shiftily*

GOOD DO YOUR SCHOOLWORK, COY! OR WRITE PORN. YOU CAN DO IT! I'VE READ YOUR PORN AND IT'S GORGEOUS! <3

[moodswingers.livejournal.com]

Your prof is a weirdo...

Yay, J2 AU! *sends you good porn vibes*