just a small town girl

[coyotesuspect]

I'd kind of forgotten how much I hated living someplace where the most exciting thing to do is hang out in the K-Mart the next town over. Also, the only movie rental place around went out of business, and the internet here isn't even fast enough for Hulu, so my desire to see Generation Kill/Star Trek TOS/Dogma/1776 remains thwarted.

*wills parents to get NetFlix*


I guess to give people an idea of the town I went to high school in, and where my family still lives: You know all those small towns Sam and Dean visit in season 1 and 2? And you're always thinking, "This America isn't even real! Why the hell have there been only two black people in this entire show? Does everyone really carry a gun?" And there are creepy dark pine trees and depressed goth girls skirting around the edges of everything? That's here. Maybe I'll steal my sister's camera one of these days and go snap a picture of the house where the road turns off into the woods with the Confederate flag and the noose in the front yard.  

Living condition-wise, since the house is too small for everyone to have their own room, and my older brother already sleeps in the garage, I've been sleeping on a mattress on the floor of my little sister's room and living out of my suitcase. But despite all this (and all the passive aggressive bitching I do to familiar) I'm happy? I did really miss my family. And damn, but the stars out here are beautiful. 

Also! I got my driver's handbook! So presumably I am going to learn how to drive! oh god what if I kill someone

I've killed two black widows* in the past week. A third one has taken up residency in the fusebox, and I await my day to kill it. The battle between girl and poisonous arachnid continues.
 
In other news, soccer RPF has taken over my brain. I've written like 4000 words of porn even. And I hate writing porn. ALL FOR U, familiardevil , ALL FOR U.

My head hurts. Have some memes wut I stole from cantarina1  and unavoidedcrisis :

I know very little about some of the people on my friends list. Some people I know relatively well. But here's a thought: why not take this opportunity to tell me a little something about yourself. Any old thing at all. Just so the next time I see your name I can say: "Ah, there's so and so...she likes office supplies." 

and:

Post a link to whatever fanworks you're most proud of! I don't care what your medium is: podfic, art, graphics, meta, fic, poetry, mixes; if you're particularly proud of it, I want to see it in the comments. Throw in a link to something you've always wished had gotten more attention and I'll wander over to have a visit. If you think I've already seen it but it really is your favourite, post it anyway. I'll leave more feedback if I haven't already left much and it gives everyone else a chance to be exposed to these fantastic things they may have missed.

*I originally forgot to put the very important modifier "black" here. So it read "I've killed two widows in the past week." Yeeeeah.

ETA: Oh, and the point of this post: I haven't been getting lj notifications! And since I only use my e-mail for lj notifications, I haven't really been checking it! Also, aim signs me on automatically on the family computer (despite my unclicking the "sign in automatically" box), so, uh, be careful lest you end up talking to my dad or little brother or cousins? Believe it or not, I have been even worse about keeping in touch with real life friends. I don't even remember the last time I logged in on facebook. /o\

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[unavoidedcrisis.livejournal.com]

Those tiny towns always make banjo music play quietly in my head. You know how I mean. But it's okay but I live in one too.

One thing about Leen: I absolutely, positively cannot walk in any form of high heels.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

A good friend of mine plays the banjo. He told me once that Mayan heiroglyphs are proof that man and dinosaurs once co-existed. Also, he found God when he was hit by a car while riding a bike.

*shrugs*

That is very sad. ): I love high heels. I used to wear them to school all the time my senior year.

[unavoidedcrisis.livejournal.com]

I... What? Okay. He sounds like my kind of guy.

I guess it's sad, I wish I could tower over my enemies.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

Also, inquiring minds want to know: are small Canadian towns significantly different from small American ones? I imagine everyone as being friendlier.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

He's really cool, and a great artist. Just. You know.

It really is a fantastic feeling. Knowing it will hurt really badly when you kick them is a nice feeling too.

[unavoidedcrisis.livejournal.com]

I guess people can be jerks anywhere, but I find everyone around here is pretty chill (is that what the whippersnappers are saying these days?). I think I'm a little weird around strangers as a general rule, which means they are a little strange around me... Tons of people here are dog people. Walk down the street in any smaller Canadian town or city (not the big ones. Big cities are mean) with a dog, and everyone will stop to chat. Does that happen in America?

[unavoidedcrisis.livejournal.com]

Exactly. I know a few people like that too.

It always hurts when I kick people ;) Sometimes I imagine heels would be good for stepping on people's feet when they get too close to you on the bus.

[little-missmimi.livejournal.com]

I haven't killed anyone while driving yet, or hit anyone or anything. It's scary, but you will be fine. Trust me.

One thing about me: my immune system sucks. If someone in one of my classes has a cold, I will get it.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

I get nodded at a lot when I walk the dogs, and if I run into someone I know, they'll generally offer me pot. There are a lot of churches around here, though. And I think one of the ones nearby has a Tea Party meeting every Sunday. So, conservative, white, and Christian with an underlying drug problem I guess is how I would sum things up.

Honestly, I feel like I get into more conversations with people when I wander around south of campus back in Chicago. Though, everyone downtown is hurry-hurry.

[taintedlove.livejournal.com]

DO YOU LIVE IN MY HOMETOWN? Seriously, sounds like we're from the same place. And lucky me, I'm here for a week. *facepalm*

You adored the hell out of this already, but I am pretty proud of my boy!Ruby/girl!Castiel mix. :D


ALSO:

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

But I can barely tell my left from my right apart. I literally have to pause to think about it. D:

Ouch. That really sucks. : / *pets*

[unavoidedcrisis.livejournal.com]

We live just down the hill from one of the First Nations reserves on top of being a college town, so yeah, drugs. We're also just down the hill from a Canadian Forces base too, so the town is very pro-military too.

We have the same number of churches that we do bars. We do like our booze here.

[ai-kizu.livejournal.com]

So small. I'm trying to think of the English equivalent but all the small towns I've gone to have been rather nice no nooses or anything.

Stuff about me? I'm an urban girl but I still love the countryside. I love classical music. I have an interest in fictional incest so the SPN fandom was good for me. I like parfait. Got an interest in Japan/Japanese. I like being short (5'2") but I'm normal size in Japan and that is weird.

Black widows ahhhhh T_T;;;.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

So...your town is a combination of Native Americans, college kids, and the military? That actually sounds kind of cool...

That reminds me of Montana. I liked Montana.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

SADLY NO. ;_; AT LEAST THEN WE COULD BOND TOGETHER.

>D I can adore the hell out of it some more though, can't I?

<33333333333333333333

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Welcome to the dark underbelly of rural Americana, I guess? It would probably be less ridiculous if I didn't live in California. : /

Oooh! One thing I've always wondered about you, why Japan? Why Japanese?

I have an interest in fictional incest so the SPN fandom was good for me
*g* This made me laugh. I don't suppose you could link me to any essays on the subject matter?

[locknkey.livejournal.com]

I did not think anyone in Cali lived in a place more country than me - you are in Cali, Y/Y? If not, I blame the graying gray matter. I'm old - get off my grass, you dumbass kids!

So the thing about me, since you brought up desolate little burgs...I literally stop for chickens while taking my son to school and it's always fun for us to see if the ponies are wearing their blankets in the morning. On the main street I've witnessed - mind you in fenced yards, but still - goats mating and peacocks strutting. The NRA calls my house weekly - it's the demographic and the Bush/Palin signs painted a lovely blue and red field around the neighborhood during election season. And - drum roll please - if you stop by on a Saturday the local hot dog, sandwich stand plays host to a semi-trailer bed bedecked in the glory of the confederate south.

My favorite thing by me, hmmmm... this is hard and unfair to make you look at the end of the world, long ass fic with unicorns and musical numbers so....truthfully this is my favorite thing - part of a bonded Sam/Dean story, Sam is 12, but this is very PG-13.

http://loolookitty.livejournal.com/28528.html

please to be coming and killing my black widows - many of them and they will challenge the great widow slayer with their soul sucking black carapaces and snicking pincers

[taintedlove.livejournal.com]

The only good thing about my town is monsoon season. We get amazing hardcore rain every single day from late July to early September. And I mean it when I say that is the ONLY good thing.

YES. ALWAYS ADORE IT. :D

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

I am in Cali! Up in the foothills around the Sierra Nevadas. I'm assuming your inland Cali too, if you've got the same political demographics. I remember stealing a Prop 8 sign that was out in front of my little brother and sister's school, and "improving it" by adding a skirt to the husband and taping a big "NO" over the yes. Then I carried it around school the next day. o:)

No chickens that I've seen! But a girl I tutored in math kept goats, and I know several people who raise llamas, of all things.

Thanks for the link! :D I will be sure to check it out.

I would be happy too. Let me just find my Trusty Rock of Big Crushing.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

Ahahaha. I hate the monsoon season. It does not stop raining from like October until mid-February here. And my high school had no hallways and my German classroom leaked. /o\

At least I do like most of the people here, even if I don't agree with their politics.

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

plays host to a semi-trailer bed bedecked in the glory of the confederate south.

Also, this is so absurdly NorCal that I have to believe it. I have many memories of pick up trucks with Confederate flag license plate holders stopping to let me cross the street to school. *facepalms*

I'm assuming you have a lot of "libertarians" too? Ron Paul signs are always in season, dontchya know!

[locknkey.livejournal.com]

I'm assuming your inland Cali too The valley - literally I can be inside the Capital Building in 15 minutes if it's not rush hour. SO it's very surreal, like it's own little pocket universe. IDEK? :)

[taintedlove.livejournal.com]

Aw, I love the rain. It cools everything down, and just gives everything a cool aura. Also, it lasts a lot longer there, so that might be part of it. :D

I... used to like people? I thought I had lots of friends here, then I came home this week and have done pretty much nothing. All my friends are gone, or I'm realizing aren't really my friends anyway. And going from living with three teenage girls to three crazyass kids under the age of 13 is driving me up the wall. :P

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

Oooh the Valley. D: At least I have trees. That does sound surreal. But at least you're near a city! So there's stuff to do. :D Fifteen minutes just gets me...pretty close to K Mart. ):

[coyotesuspect.livejournal.com]

I liked the rain a lot when I lived in the desert. And I love thunderstorms. But months of freezing, gray rain just depresses me.

You know, I haven't actually gotten in touch with any of my high school friends since coming back, outside of randomly running into people. It's nothing against them, I just prefer being alone. So I guess when I say I like people, I mean I can tolerate most of them and don't find them unpleasant to be around, but like solitude better. So I am antisocial in a non-people hating way. \o/