coyotesuspect

Title: the (parentheses) all clicking shut behind you
Subject: Dean/Tessa
Notes: Made for the fanmix challenge at

spnland . Mix contains individual downloads of ten songs, a .zip of all songs, and front and back covers. Title of mix is from the Richard Siken poem, Meanwhile. Posted because I told

familiardevil I would if she posted her absolutely stunning and lovely Sam/Dean mix.
Summary: This mainly covers the events of In My Time of Dying, but also alludes to Death Takes a Holiday. Dean, needless to say, has a complicated relationship with death.

ETA: I originally had the wrong song uploaded for "World Without End" but that's fixed now. Sorry folks!

Feedback is good karma. <3 Hope you enjoy the music.

Near the Wall of a House

Near the wall of a house painted
to look like stone,
I saw visions of God.
A sleepless night that gives others a headache
gave me flowers
opening beautifully inside my brain.
And he who was lost like a dog
will be found like a human being
and brought back home again.

Love is not the last room: there are others
after it, the whole length of the corridor
that has no end.

~Yehuda Amichai

(1) He Dreams He’s Awake – The Stars
Sunrise
Oh sunrise
When will you ever come?

Sunrise
Oh sunrise
When will the night be gone?

It won't let me go

(2) Wide Eyes – Local Natives
Oh some evil spirit
Oh some evil this way comes
Oh to see it with my own eyes

All the men of faith and men of science had their questions
Could it ever be on earth as it is in heaven?

(3) Oh, Death! – Pearl and the Beard
Oh, Death is on me and the light is growing slowly dimmer
still, I see
oh Death...oh Death… oh Death but I still see

I love you the way you are, the way you've always been
I love you the way you are, the way you've always been

(4) Winter Windows – Sea Wolf
The voice crackles when he says that God will save you
He will take you from the lonely life you're living
If you give, if you give, if you give up on what you want

As a boy he was taught he was the bad one
One that could heed the other, the protector
He will walk, he will walk, he will walk into the river

This is the world, this is the world we live in
It's not the one I choose but it's the one we're given
This is the world, this is the world we live in
And it's the winter windows that ends become beginnings

(5) Flood – Dark Dark Dark
Oh, your feet, they shuffle around
Like you packed your body with sand
To keep the rains back
Oh, your feet, they shuffle around
You feel the weight of it all

But you might go
Up and away
Watch you move through the earth
Moving like light

Let your thoughts go
Let them move you
Move through the earth

(6) The Banjolin Song – Mumford and Sons
She stole my heart and made me sing
She tore me limb from limb
I did not think that I could love
Or be loved that way again

Well my eyes shall see light again
And my heart shall bleed right again

(7) The Velocity of Saul at the Time of his Conversion – Okkervil River
Loosen the wire, your time has expired
The only word left is goodbye
In my new dream the light's shining on me
little needles of sodium unstitch the seams of the sky

Hold your head higher, the heavenly choir
Is settling in for the night

And say "Enough 'you and I'
Enough of 'the fight'
Enough of 'prevail' or 'walk in the light'

(8) Pink Bullets – The Shins
I was just bony hands as cold as a winter pole
You held a warm stone out new flowing blood to hold
Oh what a contrast you were

Since then it's been a book you read in reverse
So you understand less as the pages turn.

I don't look back as much as a rule
And all this way before murder was cool
But your memory is here and I'd like it to stay
Warm light on a winter day.

(9) Love Love Love – The Mountain Goats
Love love is gonna lead you by the hand
Into a white and soundless place
Now we see this
As in a mirror dimly
Then we shall see each other
Face to face

Snakes in the grass beneath our feet
Rain in the clouds above
Some moments last forever
And some flare out with love love love

(10) World Without End – A. A. Bondy
And a breeze blew down the tracks
And her hair of rainin' black
And hearts pumping blood
In 3/4 time

So don't leave me behind
For I'm lost among my kind
And now you are broken
I am less

And world without end
O world without end

.zip of music