just a small town girl

[coyotesuspect]

I'd kind of forgotten how much I hated living someplace where the most exciting thing to do is hang out in the K-Mart the next town over. Also, the only movie rental place around went out of business, and the internet here isn't even fast enough for Hulu, so my desire to see Generation Kill/Star Trek TOS/Dogma/1776 remains thwarted.

*wills parents to get NetFlix*


I guess to give people an idea of the town I went to high school in, and where my family still lives: You know all those small towns Sam and Dean visit in season 1 and 2? And you're always thinking, "This America isn't even real! Why the hell have there been only two black people in this entire show? Does everyone really carry a gun?" And there are creepy dark pine trees and depressed goth girls skirting around the edges of everything? That's here. Maybe I'll steal my sister's camera one of these days and go snap a picture of the house where the road turns off into the woods with the Confederate flag and the noose in the front yard.  

Living condition-wise, since the house is too small for everyone to have their own room, and my older brother already sleeps in the garage, I've been sleeping on a mattress on the floor of my little sister's room and living out of my suitcase. But despite all this (and all the passive aggressive bitching I do to familiar) I'm happy? I did really miss my family. And damn, but the stars out here are beautiful. 

Also! I got my driver's handbook! So presumably I am going to learn how to drive! oh god what if I kill someone

I've killed two black widows* in the past week. A third one has taken up residency in the fusebox, and I await my day to kill it. The battle between girl and poisonous arachnid continues.
 
In other news, soccer RPF has taken over my brain. I've written like 4000 words of porn even. And I hate writing porn. ALL FOR U, familiardevil , ALL FOR U.

My head hurts. Have some memes wut I stole from cantarina1  and unavoidedcrisis :

I know very little about some of the people on my friends list. Some people I know relatively well. But here's a thought: why not take this opportunity to tell me a little something about yourself. Any old thing at all. Just so the next time I see your name I can say: "Ah, there's so and so...she likes office supplies." 

and:

Post a link to whatever fanworks you're most proud of! I don't care what your medium is: podfic, art, graphics, meta, fic, poetry, mixes; if you're particularly proud of it, I want to see it in the comments. Throw in a link to something you've always wished had gotten more attention and I'll wander over to have a visit. If you think I've already seen it but it really is your favourite, post it anyway. I'll leave more feedback if I haven't already left much and it gives everyone else a chance to be exposed to these fantastic things they may have missed.

*I originally forgot to put the very important modifier "black" here. So it read "I've killed two widows in the past week." Yeeeeah.

ETA: Oh, and the point of this post: I haven't been getting lj notifications! And since I only use my e-mail for lj notifications, I haven't really been checking it! Also, aim signs me on automatically on the family computer (despite my unclicking the "sign in automatically" box), so, uh, be careful lest you end up talking to my dad or little brother or cousins? Believe it or not, I have been even worse about keeping in touch with real life friends. I don't even remember the last time I logged in on facebook. /o\

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It's complicated, actually. I've only lived here since I was 13, when my dad retired from the Army. But before that, I lived all over the place. And it's where my family lives now, so it's where I come back to on breaks.

Where you live now kind of sounds like where I go to school- the neighborhood just to the south of us has a bad reputation. but really! It's not that bad.

I couldn't sleep because it was too quiet
I've heard of people feeling that way before, and it just seems so strange to me! But I guess I can sleep anywhere. *g*

And that 'decorative' noose in the front yard of that house you mentioned - um, wow, colour me shocked.M
Yeah, there's a lot of that kind of ugliness around here. : / And it definitely colored my perception of what was normal. A lot of the desks in my high school had swastikas carved into them. Which I didn't think was acceptable, but still thought was normal for an American high school. When I mentioned it to my college friends, they all stared at me in shock and horror. And we had problems my junior and senior year with people coming onto campus to harass the few black students.

So, when people tell me racism isn't a big deal in America anymore, I can't help but wonder what planet they live on.

I don't mind spiders. Really, I'm kind of fond of them. I'm just not a fan of poisonous ones. And thanks for the support. *hugs*